Maybe it's just me but it is only now, 5 years after I have passed out from my school that I miss the place like crazy.
I mean, I sure was sentimental about leaving behind an institution that had been a second home to me for the first 14yrs of my life but of late I desperately feel like walking down memory lane again.
I want to pull on my school uniform, shoes, socks et al.
I wanna pack my schoolbag and go to school... :(
I wanna feel my heart thump in horror as my Maths teacher walks into my class saying, "Goodmorning class. All those who have done their homeworks sit down!"
I wanna stand in line for morning assembly constantly rubbing my shoes against the back of my socks to avoid getting pulled up for unpolished shoes.
I want to muster the guts I never had to walk up to my highschool crush and tell him that my heart does a somersault everytime he smiles at me.
I want to cry all over again over the knee I scraped in the nasty fall I had when playing volleyball.
I want to feel that searing pain that shot through my body when I stood up with that scraped knee and got on with the game burying my tears under a smile pretending I was strong (for the sake of the cute senior guys who were playing with us :P ).
I want to sit in 5C during the last period and feel my tummy growl at the taunting fragrances of food wafting into our classroom through the open windows facing the hostel kitchen where lunch is being cooked.
I want to run my fingers over the long, endless rows of books lined up in our library and breathe in their scents, all along feeling the watchful eyes of Jaquline miss, our librarian, follow my every move.
I want to hear the "Tong-tong-tong!"sounds of the school bell and the general clamour of laughing and shrieking playing children during break time.
I used to hate assemblies back then but now I want to stand for hours in one and at the end of it, sing out loud, the Choice Anthem...
But that's not the way life works is it?
We cant just go back and re-experience those moments that the past has dissolved in its depths.
Damn!



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